“Just when you think life can’t get any worse…  it goes worse just to show you it can.”

It’s funny how I named my last blog post “The End”…. now I don’t even have any title left for this one………..!!

I guess if “The End” meant death then I should call this something that means eternal-torment-in-hell………

I don’t see why it’s so difficult for ppl to just come out and say what they want… why is hanging on to self induced helplessness more promising than facing yourself for who you are, and rising up for what you need… what are they so scared of……

why do they feel they need to hurt to be strong and ignore to feel confident……

why do they blame everything on ‘life’ and ’situations’ and other abstract ideas……. it’s ppl who make decisions or can’t make up their mind… it’s ppl who change things or resist it… it’s ppl who make lives or break hearts………

so lets not blame anything on life or time or situation, coz they’re all lifeless things, they’re just vague ideas……………. there’s just you and there’s just me………… it’s just between us……… we make it we break it……… it’s all in our hands

……….’life’ has nothing to do with it………..

“Just when you think ppl can’t get any more difficult to deal with…. they get difficult just so that the confusion it creates will help them hide what they truly want, from themselves and everyone else”

Nirnayak Andolan 2076

They say it’s been 18 days or so since these demonstrations started. I lost count days ago. I’m not even sure I ever started counting. Frankly, I never thought it’s gonna be this big. They’ve been talking about this Nirnayak Andolan for more than a year now; who would’ve thought they’d actually make it happen. I mean, they never did anything else that they promised to the citizens of this country. But, for whatever it’s worth, it’s happening now.
My exam has been postponed indefinitely. I just had two more end semester exams to give – my last two exams. I was thinking about it and it took me back to my first two major exams – 1st term and 2nd term exams of class 1 at my school. Fifteen years! Man it has been a while. Time, as it seems, just flew by. Things changed – People changed. I still remember those days – whole country was demonstrating against the King asking for democracy, all the political parties had united, many people died, there used to be curfew all day, and my exams were postponed………. come to think of it, nothing much has changed in these last fifteen years. I even think I had pretty much the same height that I have now. Jokes apart, the fact that we’ve ended up right where we started, worries me a little. What is to say we won’t end up right here in next fifteen years, no matter how this ends.
Fifteen years ago there were two sides – the Monarchy and the Political Parties. Now we’ve got Maos thrown into the mix. Actually, I think the only thing that we achieved in last fifteen years are Mao activists. Who knows what new force will’ve emerged before the Nirnayak Andolan of 2076. Maybe some religious activist groups or perhaps some foreign insurgency. But then again, I could be wrong. After all we’re all human……………. well, most of us anyway.