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All About You

November 3, 2008 theCipher Leave a comment

You’re kind and you’re caring
You’re strong and you’re daring
You make me feel near, no matter how far
You’re sweet and you’re nice
Help, without thinking twice
An angel in my eyes – that is who you are

You’re considerate and selfless
To have you I feel blessed
You guide me through dark like a shining star
You’re amazing yet humble
You’d never let me stumble
Holding my hands as long as you are

You’re so innocent, yet smart
Beautiful smile – golden heart
Compared to you perfections feels below par
Till forever I might try
The oceans will run dry
But words won’t fully justify just how special you are

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Picture Of You

September 28, 2008 theCipher 3 comments

Picture of You
A picture of you and it’s all I can see
Wherever I go, it’s always been with me
A graceful smile that makes my day bright
An innocent look sings to me through the night

A picture of you and I miss you even more
Keep asking myself why didn’t I meet you before
One look at it and it makes my day
One look at it and I can’t turn away

A picture of you, so pretty, so sweet
I take a look and my heart skips a beat
You can call me a liar and all I’m saying’s not true
You be the judge coz my heart is with you

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Waiting For My Sunshine

September 21, 2008 theCipher 2 comments

I’m sitting here, it’s past four
Nothing to do, nowhere to go
I know I should have already slept
But my sleep went with you when you left

Read your mails and replied those
Watched your message in videos
But even that doesn’t make it fine
I’m just waiting for my sun to shine

… come back soon

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About Something – Part 1

September 16, 2008 theCipher 5 comments

It’s been a while since I put something up here. Well except for the few things that I eventually deleted.

Well, this is my first ‘undeleted’ post after I left Nepal. And for sometime now I wanted to write something about my new world – my life in the USA. It’s different here. Everything is different. People are different. The weather is different. Everything.

One reason I wanted to write about USA is that whenever I meet someone online from back home they have to ask one question – “How is America?” And honestly I don’t know what to say. Someone suggested me that I should just send them a map from the net and tell them “Well, this is America” “And that little green box down in the bottom – that’s Texas. That’s where I’m living.” I don’t know how America is. I lived in Kathmandu for 24 years and if you ask me how if Nepal – all I can describe is Kathmandu. And I’ve only been here for a month. Forget USA, forget Texas, forget Dallas (that’s the city inside Texas where I live), forget all that – right now, I’m not even sure what all the electric switches in my apartment are suppose to turn on.

Now let me tell you a little something about Texas. First of all, whenever I tell someone that I’m in Texas, they tell me about my other friends who are scattered somewhere in the Texas and ask me that I must be seeing them often. Well, about that – Texas is around 5 times bigger than Nepal – not Kathmandu – I’m saying Nepal. So, going to meet a real close friend of mine who’s also in Texas in a place called Lubbock means I’d have to travel more than 600 km; that’s like traveling between Kathmandu and Pokhara – 3 times.

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6 Questions… They Bought It… I Got It

August 1, 2008 theCipher 4 comments

It had been years since I first saw one of my friends sweat over a US visa interview – today, it was my turn to face the music. I wasn’t nervous. Maybe a little restless though -  I wanted to get it over with as quickly as I can. After waiting 30 mins in sun and another hour in the shade inside, they put me in the firing line…

Visa Guy: You’re Abhishek Paudel Chhetri?

Me: Yes sir.

Visa Guy: How are you doing?

Me: Fine sir.

Visa Guy: So, you’ve got full scholarship? (with smile)

Me: Yes sir. (copying his smile)

Visa Guy: University of Texas, Dallas?

Me: Yes sir.

Visa Guy: Which subject?

Me: Computer Engineering. (wondering if it’s Computer Science)

Visa Guy: Excited?

Me: Yes sir.

Visa Guy: (Smiling) Come today at 1.

Me: (Smiling even more) Thank you sir.

… As easy as taking a candy form a kid :) (not that I’ve ever tried it though)

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FUD

July 13, 2008 theCipher 2 comments

Fear

The moments I prayed
would never end,
the clouds of hope
that never rained,
are hunting me now
as I say goodbye.
Coz the truth
makes living hard
and the hope
doesn’t let me die.

Uncertainty

I’m turning away
from where I want to be
I’m running away
where – I don’t clearly see
I think I’m making my choices
or they’re being made for me
I think I’m waiting for ‘the’ choice
that’ll finally set me free

Doubt

Doubts,
yours and mine
Indecisions,
and I’m running out of time
Choices,
I’m second guessing them all
Hope,
prelude to the eventual fall

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How About Now?

June 20, 2008 theCipher 6 comments

look at that! two sundays!!!

Me: Give me one Sunday… I’ve got few plans.

You: There’s just one Sunday in a week, how can I give you that :)

… Well princess, how about now?!! :)

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Fear For Fear

April 26, 2008 theCipher 2 comments

superman

The colors, the music, the people
And I’m there…
But you don’t care!
Hunting me for months…
My biggest fear!!!

For once I wanted something else to scare me,
To scare me more
Like never before

For 1.8 seconds,
After a long time
A new fear in mind,
As it should
As I had hoped it would
It felt good,
It really felt good!

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Losing My Senses

April 5, 2008 theCipher 4 comments

Looking back everything seems like a dream,
The calmness, the chaos,
The silence, the screams.

People I talked to, things I said,
Fragments of memory come alive and die,
It’s hard to know what’s real and what’s not,
When you feel so low and get so high.

Thank you all for being there,
And thank you for listening to all I said.
Sometimes when you lose your heart,
It kinda feels good to lose your head.

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Missing You

March 26, 2008 theCipher 7 comments

(found these lines in a friend’s gtalk message, written for his sweetheart on the other side of the world)

Close your eyes
Relax your body and stop breathing
… as long as you can.

Now breathe…
I miss you as much as you missed the air.

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Alone

March 20, 2008 theCipher 3 comments

alone

Amidst thousands of people, we all walk alone.

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A Good Read

February 17, 2008 theCipher 3 comments

(I stumbled onto this article when I was in 10th grade… in these 7-8 years I’ve read it more times than anything else I’ve ever read.)


Love ……… as I felt
(The beginning…… the end)

-Anonymous

It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel. Maybe GOD wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Love is when you take away, the feeling, the passion and the romance in the relationship and find out you still care for that person. Sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end, that it was never meant to be yours and you just have to let it go. When a door of happiness closes another opens but oftentimes we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the one you can sit on the porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you’ve ever had. It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing till it arrives. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don’t expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn’t, be content it grew in yours. There are things that you’d love to hear that you would never hear from the person whom you would like to hear them from, but don’t be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from his/her heart.

Never say good bye if you still want to try, never give up if you still feel you can go on, never say you don’t love a person if you can’t let go. Love comes to those who still hope although they have been disappointed, to those who still believe although they’ve been betrayed, to those who still need to love, although they have been hurt before and to those who’ve the courage and faith to build trust again. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Don’t go for looks, they can deceive. Don’t go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Hope you find the one that makes you smile. There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real. Hope that you dream of that special someone. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things that you want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy and enough money to buy me gifts. Always put yourself in other’s shoes. If it hurts you then it probably hurts the person too. A careless word may kindle strife, a cruel word may wreck a life, a timely word may level stress, a loving word may heal and bless. The beginning of love is to let those we love be themselves, and not twist them with our own image otherwise, we love only the reflections of ourselves we find in them. The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest of future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can’t go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you’re the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

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About Last Week…

February 9, 2008 theCipher 1 comment

life is beautiful

Love is putting somebody else’s happiness before yours.

Life never ceases to surprise you… even when you had already seen it coming.

I find change very uncomfortable; but it’s not for me to choose. I had to say goodbye to a very old friend and got closer to a new one. I guess, things have a way of working out.

I believe in destiny. A friend of mine calls it determinism; but destiny sounds more romantic I guess. I don’t see point in worrying about things that are totally out of my control. Life is suppose to be difficult. A day spent worthwhile is a day when you’ve played your part to make it a little bit easier for somebody else.

Love is putting somebody else’s happiness before yours.
        … it hurts sometimes… but it’s worth it.

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